Para ver la luz, muchas veces tenemos que arriesgarnos en la oscuridad ~
Life's a bitch ~
¿Alguien tiene una explicación lógica? ¿Algo que me termine de satisfacer? Necesito algo que me deje conforme, que lo escuche y diga "ah, entonces está bien", algo que me haga pensar que todos estamos errados y que nos quejamos por histericos e insaciables. No se, cada día me convenzo más de que la vida es una HIJA DE PUTA. A veces pasan cosas tan lindas que me dan ganas de no morirme nunca para poder seguir siendo así de feliz eternamente, que nunca acabe. Otras veces tengo bastantes ganas de morirme, irme al choto y que todos y todo se vaya a la mierda. Pero en momentos como este solo se me cruzan DOS cosas por la cabeza. Una, que no me tengo que quejar tanto por algunas cosas que me hacen sentir que camino al borde del abismo, cuando no son ni una pizca de grave. La segunda, porque la vida es TAN BUENA con algunos y TAN FORRA con otros? No me cabe en la cabeza una respuesta que me cuadre, que encaje. Ninguna que pueda aceptar. No existe respuesta, la vida es así y punto. No hay vuelta que darle. Pero ¿despues de todas las que te pasaron, te tenia que venir a pasar esto? Está bien, habras sido muy ingenua, te habras dejado llevar y no dejas de haber tenido parte de 'culpa'. Si, la culpa mas inocente, la que ni cuenta, ni vale contar en este caso. Pero vos, INFELIZ, no hacía falta que le cagues la vida de esa manera. A ella, a la familia y a la gente que se preocupa. No lo entiendo y no lo voy a entender. Solo agradezco que este bien (todavia me sorprende lo MAL que me ponen cirtas cosas aún cuando se trata de gente que no es intima a mi, ni mucho menos). A vos te deseo cosas bastante feas, ni hace falta decirlo. Lo único que pido ahora es que vos, VIDA, le tengas un poquito de piedad a algunas personas, no hace falta llegar a estos puntos. Rebalsas el vaso y ya te fuiste al choto...
Do you excpect me to belive I was the only one to fall?
Cada vez me sorprendo más de lo poco que conocemos a las personas. No, mejor dicho, es una especie de ecuación. Es matemática: "a mayor tiempo compartido con X persona, mayor cantidad de nuevas actitudes, frente a determinadas situaciones, vas a conocer". Lo malo es que, 'after all the time we spent together' la mayoria de las acitutdes no me resulten agradables, lindas, o siquiera buenas. No veo la hora de armarme de coraje y decirtelo, armarme de compañia (sola no puedo, esta vez) y hacerte entender ciertas cosas. Lo malo es que sos una parte de mi, un pedazo que si me falta, me queda vacío. Por lo tanto siempre trabaje durisimo para no perderte, me rebaje, llore, grite, me eché culpas que no me correspondian. Esta vez me hago fuerte y te dejo ese trabajo a vos, para que lo entiendas sola. Si no lo haces, lo hablaremos, pero ya no se como hacer para que lo aceptes y DEJES DE NEGARLO. No se, ojala algun dia cercano se de la charla, mientras... espero.
Just give me a sign ~
Here I am on the phone again and awkward silence is on the other end, I used to know the sound of a smile in your voice, but right now all I feel is the pain of the fighting.
Starting up again, all the things we talk about you know they stay on my mind. All the things we laugh about they'll bring us through it every time, after time...
Don't say a word, I know you feel the same Just give me a sign, say anything, please don't walk away, I know you want to stay Just give me a sign, say anything
Some say that time changes Best friends can become strangers But I don't want that, no, not for you If you just stay with me, we can make it through
So here we are again, same old arguement And now I'm wondering if things'll ever change, yeah
When will you laugh again? Laugh like you did back when we made noise till 3 am And the neighbors would complain
I'm fallin', I'm fallin', I'm fallin' down
Jump then fall ~
I like the way you sound in the morning,
we're on the phone and without a warning
I realize your laugh is the best sound
I have EVER heard.
I like the way I can't keep my focus,
I watch you talk, you didn't notice,
I hear the words but...
all I can think is we should be together.
Every time you smile, I smile,
and every time you shine, I'll shine for you.
Whoa, I'm feeling you baby.
Don't be afraid to jump then fall,
jump then fall into me.
Baby, I'm never gonna leave you.
Say that you wanna be with me too.
Cause I'm a stay through it all, so jump then fall.
I like the way your hair falls in your face,
you got the keys to me.
I love each freckle on your face, oh.
I've never been so wrapped up, honey.
I like the way you're everything I ever wanted.
I had time to think it over,
and all I can say is come closer,
take a deep breath then jump then fall into me.
The bottom's gonna drop out from under our feet ,
I'll catch you.
And people say things that bring you to your knees,
I'll catch you.
The time is gonna come
when you're so mad you could cry,
but I'll hold you through the night until you smile.
Don't be afraid, PLEASE, jump then fall.
Psycho for love ♥
My friends say I'm a fool to think that you're the one for me,
I guess I'm just a psycho for love.
Cuz honestly the truth is that you know I'm never leaving,
cuz you're my angel sent from above.
Love me, love me, say that you love me.
Fool me, Fool me, oh how you do me.
Kiss me, kiss me, say that you miss me.
Tell me what I wanna hear... tell me you love me.
People try to tell me but I still refuse to listen.
Cuz they don't get to spend time with you,
a minute with you is worth more than a thousand days without your love.
My heart is blind but I DON'T CARE
cuz when I'm with you everything has disappeared.
And every time I hold you near. I never wanna let you go, oh.
Hey you, I want to be your girlfriend ~
Que lindo es ver que me contengas, que puedo contar con vos, que cuando querés podes ser el mejor consejero, que me escuchas y me apoyas. Que estás ahi para mi, gracias. Que lindo, que lindo, que lindo. Me encanta que tengas ese poder de dejarme feliz durante horas y horas, esa felicidad de la que nada ni nadie me puede bajar (solo vos) y que aunque sea lo más minimo que me podes dar, me va llenando de a poquito. Jesus (pronunciado en ingles), COMO te quiero ♥.
Before I fall too fast, kiss me quick, but make it last.So I can see how badly this will hurt me when you say goodbye. Keep it sweet, keep it slow. Let the future pass, and don't let go. But tonight I could fall too soon into this beautiful moonlight. But you're so hypnotizing, you've got me laughing while I sing, you've got me smiling in my sleep. And I can see this unraveling, your love is where I'm falling, but please don't catch me. See this heart won't settle down, like a child running scared from a clown. I'm terrified of what you do, my stomach screams just when I look at you. Run far away so I can breathe, even though you're far from suffocating me. I can't set my hopes too high cause every hello ends with a goodbye. So now you see why I'm scared, I can't open up my heart without a care. But here I go, it's what I feel. And for the first time in my life I know it's for real. If this is love, please don't break me. I'm giving up so JUST CATCH ME.
Jealousy
Si hay algo que no soporto, son los CELOS. No soporto cuando alguien me cela y no soporto celar. Estando en cualquier postura, te sentis una mierda. Por un lado te sentis encerrado, limitado y con unas ganas inmensas de salir corriendo. Por el otro te dan ganas de encerrar a todos los que te importan en una cajita (separados, obviamente) y que solo VOS los puedas ver, tocar, sentir, abrazar. Gosh, sentimientos HORRIBLES, son lo peor del mundo. No veo la hora de liberarme de vos POSESIÓN. Lo peor es que yo no era asi y si hay una segunda cosa que odio tan intensamente es haber cambiado para mal. Pero "hay un boomergan en la city, mi amor, TODO VUELVE, como vos decis". En cualquier sentido en que se entienda esa cita, ES VALIDO.
Gaga, oh lala ♥
I want your ugly, I want your disease
I want your everything as long as it's free, I want your love
I want your drama, the touch of your hand, I want your leather-studded kiss in the sand, I want your love
You know that I want you
And you know that I need you
I want it bad, your bad romance
I want your love and I want your revenge
You and me could write a bad romance
Caught in a bad romance
I want your horror, I want your design
‘Cause you're a criminal as long as your mine
I want your love
I want your psycho, your vertigo stick
Want you in my rear window
Baby you're sick, I want your love
I want your love and I want your revenge
I want your love,
I don't wanna be friends
Je veux ton amour et je veux ta revanche
J'veux ton amour,
I don't wanna be friends
Want your bad romance!
I'm ready now... ComeGetMe ~
Frozen, forgetful again, the part where I lose my head
The scene where I'm supposed to speak, but instead I sit and listen again, I'm stuck with these card, I guess, leaping from this cliff in my thoughts, I fly lie stones in my heart
Drowning in doubt for one reason I sit so patiently drenched in what you want me to be, I can't escape I'm ready now, ComeGetMe
Fearless with cape in hand, conquer what I need to mend Little girls get so broken...
Through with golden roads and perfect love, too much of your mouth is lie too much sun, how I burn, how I burn, I was so patient waitin' for my turn
I fly like stones, as I break every bone, COME GET ME...
Maybe...
I'm strong but I break
I'm stubborn, and I make plenty of mistakes
Yeah, I'm hard, and life with me is never easy
To figure out, to love, I'm jaded but oh so lovely
All you have to do is hold me...
And you'll know and you'll see just how sweet it can be if you'll trust me, love me, let me, maybe
Someday when we're at the same place, when we're on the same road when it's ok to hold my hand without feeling lost, without all the excuses
when it's just because you love me, you let me, you need me
then maybe all you have to do is hold me
I'm confusing as hell, I'm north and south
And I'll probably never have it all figured out
But what I know is I wasn't meant to walk this world without you and I promise I'll try to give you every little part of me, every single detail you missed with your eyes, then maybe one day we'll meet again and you'll need me, you'll see me completely, every little piece
Oh yeah maybe you'll love me, you'll love me then I don't want to be tough and I don't want to be proud I don't need to be fixed and I certainly don't need to be found I'm not lost, I need to be loved, I just want to be loved by YOU and I won't stop 'cause I believe that maybe, should know better than to touch the fire twice but I'm thinking maybe, maybe, love... maybe
All I want .-
~Hearts break too fast when they're sentimental
Won't stay, won't last when it's love at first sight
So why are my convictions blinded by your spotlight?
Can't breath, can't sleep, need some medication I've kissed goodbye to my reservations
I know there's other fish out in the sea, not for me... I want YOU
If I can't have you, then I don't want anyone
If I can't have you, then only damage has been done, baby We can break these rules if you wanna have some fun
Think of all the love that you will lose if I can't have you
Heartbeat, cold sweat, thoughts slippin' under
Can't fight no threat cause there's just no use
One look, no hesitation, I'm slipping into you
Forgive these eyes, these lips you're tasting
No time to waste on an invitation
My shame, my self-control has suffered enough And everybody wants to be loved
I haven't seen the best that love has had to offer They say perfection's always right around the corner
Could be true?
Soy el remedio sin receta y tu amor mi enfermedad ♥
Tengo la firme conviccion de que si estás me consolido y la sospecha de que ni sospechas cuanto te amo ~
I got dynamite ~
I can't take your hand and lead you to the water
I can't make you feel what you don't feel
(but you know you wanna)
Find out how to crack me, log in try to hack me
Underneath the surface there's so much you need to know
And you might feel like you're drowning,
but that's what I need to let go
Tell me what you got to break down the walls,
you just might need dynamite
Kick senseless, my defenses
Tell me what you're gonna do, I need you to light the fuse
When the walls come crashing down
I hope you're standing right in front of me
Where my past lies all around
Cause all you need to save me is to intervene
And make the walls come crashing down...
...got dynamite
Here we go AGAIN ~
I said: "I'm so much better without you" but it's just another pretty lie cause I break down every time you come around. How did you get here under my skin? Hard as I try I know I can't quit, something about you is so addictive.
~
I would like the universe to get down on it's knees and say, "Guido, whatever you please, it's okay. Even if it's impossible, we'll arrange it." That's all that I want...
Hate how much I love you ~
As much as I need you, and I can't stand you. Must everything you do make me wanna smile? Can I not like you for awhile?... NO. I hate… you know exactly what to do. So that I can't stay mad at you, for too long that's wrong. Nadie me calma como tu y me doy cuenta que mi única verdad es que odio amarte tanto.
And i hate how much I love you boy, I cant stand how much I need you. But I just can't let you go.Tu sabes del poder que tienes sobre mi .
Es tan increible la sensación que me produce ir al teatro. Cada vez que escucho los aplausos, las risas. Cada vez que veo como los actores son tan reales y se transforman en otra persona cuando estan en el escenario. Extrañaba esa emoción al final de cada obra. Esa emoción, que se te ponga la piel de gallina, que se te llenen los ojos de lagrimas. Es algo hermoso, me recorre todo el cuerpo y me pasa desde que tengo memoria. Ir al teatro me hace b i e n. Ni hablar de estar en el escenario, pero eso, es otra historia. Asi como amo estar arriba, abajo, como excpectador, me siento igual de genial. En fin, no hay una explicación lógica, no hay una manera de describirlo. La palabra mas acertada es "escalofrios" ( de los buenos) . No cabe posibilidad de no tener uno al final de una obra... y me encanta.
Tell me... why? ~
Detesto ser así, no hace falta ser tan posesiva y celosa. Sin embargo, despues de tantas malas experiencias, a veces me excede y no lo puedo controlar. Juro hacer mi mayor esfuerzo por cambiarlo, pero a veces se hace dificil y se me va de las manos. Tengo que dejar de plantear idioteces de una vez por todas. Solo me dan ganas de pedir perdón, de retractarme, de volver el tiempo atras y relajarme un poquito más. Yo NO soy asi, me estoy convirtiendo de a poco en esto, quiero volver a ser como fui siempre y lo voy a lograr. Solo denme tiempo, es lo único que pido (porque las amo y no las quiero perder por ser una E S T U P I D A). Right now, I hate myself, me voy antes de empezar a llorar. No quiero llorar! I refuse, I refuse, I refuse...LAS AMO, mejores amigas ♥. Forever&always.
'No dejes para mañana lo que puedes hacer hoy' - Ok, si, 10 veces ~
Já, viste cuando no estudias nada y te vas a ver una obra de teatro? Bueno, A S Í. Obviamente, mañana me interno a estudiar, pero que bien se sintió no hacerlo hoy. Uno NO debe tocar una hoja o un lapiz el día del trabajador. Feliz día para mi, btw. Lo haré ad honorem, pero mi vida es un trabajo, definitivamente. El año que viene empiezo a cobrar, y despues hablamos;
What I'd give to turn it OFF and make it STOP ;
Viste cuando NO tenés ganas de estudiar. Pero ni un poquito. Cuando sabes que tenés que hacerlo pero buscas cualquier excusa para alejarte de esas fucking hojas, de esos fucking libros. Bueno, así. Ok, creo que llego la hora de despegar mi mano del mouse, so DAMN painful (no era exagerada, oh no, para nada).
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